I've learned....

I`ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I`ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assho!es.

I`ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I`ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you`d better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I`ve learned that you shouldn`t compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.

I`ve learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you`re finished.

I`ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I`ve learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take it's place!

I`ve learned that 99% of the time when something isn`t working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I`ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

The science of heart-break....

I had visions of our future. They were as clear to me as a 60 inch HDTV screen. In my visions we shared a life-long happiness. We had the kind of romance that you read about in the pages of great literature. In my heart of hearts I believed that someday it would be so.
Alas, as much as I tried, I could never get her to see my vision; to share in my reverie. Now she dreams of another, and I am forced to accept that my dreams were nothing more than foolish delusions.

Is it possible to ever really give up on a dream? Can you really stop hoping?

For the past 5 years I've sent my heart speeding toward one singular ambition. Now I must make it stop, or change direction. But Newton’s Law states that an object in motion will stay in motion unless acted upon by an unbalanced force. What force is more unbalanced than love?
One force that keeps objects from being in perpetual motion is friction. Friction is caused by a molecular attraction between materials - or people. One of the side-effects of friction is that it generates heat. The more friction you have, the more heat you will generate.
Needless to say, it will take a lot of friction to give up this hope, this vision that I have. That heat sensation is what I feel in my chest right now. The burn of trying to bring my heart to a screeching halt. Can you see the sparks?

I apologize...

...for the incredibly bad poetry I've been writing lately. It's just that I love her dearly, and I want so badly to show her how much.

Run

I run
I run far and fast
I run 'till my lungs are aflame
'Til my legs won't take another step
'Til my chest won't stop heaving
I'm not running for pain
I'm running from it
I run
I run 'til the pain from running
Overruns the pain of her not loving me

She To Me

She pleases me
She appeases me
She eases me
She teases me
She pleads with me
She sees thru me
She leans on me
She agrees with me
She disagrees with me
She's a gentle breeze to me

She percieves me

She frees me

She recieves me
She believes in me

Haven't thought of a title yet....

I'll do whatever I can for you
Buy every piece of land for you
But then I'd have a fear of giving you
Too much to take care of you

I could fly to the heavens and catch the moon
But I might cause the sun to come up too soon
I could entice the shining stars
I could take each one and put them in jars

But of what benefit am I,
If I take the light from your sky?
What if I picked enough flowers to fill your room,
Would I still be outside filled with gloom?

I could scoop up all the waters of the sea, clear and cool
But what good are the crashing waves in a silent pool?
So what, my love, can I really do
To prove that my love is true?

I could steal your heart, if I tried hard enough
But wouldn't theft defeat the purpose of love?
To wholly give your heart to another
Without disguise or sly cover

Who knows the songs that a caged bird sings?
For a caged bird cannot spread the song without wings
I'll leave you to love whom you will, my dear
In hopes that your heart's own gravity will pull you here

Do I dare?

Do I dare hold you so close to my heart?
Do I dare hide these emotions until we part?
Do I dare reach to touch you and watch you pull away?
Do I choke on my feelings as I turn and walk away?

How can I show you my feelings are true?

You're here in spirit... your heart is gone
And now my soul feels so alone
The person you once were seemed to go away,
I do in my heart hope she returns someday.

The tears that run down my cheek
So sweet, so shy, so meek
So, Kerri, if you hear my cry just know
With your heart my soul will go.

By Myself

"You and she will never be."
That's what I told myself
And before I caught the thought
I sought to control myself
I cried like I died inside
So I tried to console myself
No one here, no one near...
My own arms to hold myself